Tuesday, August 27, 2013

The Power Of Words

Your words create a positive or negative reality. They are powerful tools and only you have the key to unlock your reality. 

So, whats it going to be?

Words open a window with options on the other side. If you say: “Im a happy person then on the other side you’ll find
happiness,peace,tranquility, etc. The perception we have of ourselves is greater than the perception the world may have of us. We can speak liberating words and expand our reality or we can speak limited words and have a limited life. 

When you speak negative your mind, spirit and body are connected and they are responding to your messages. Its like vibrations out into space. It creates a frequency and you cant expect 
to get good things when you send out messages into the world like:

Im depressed!
I feel like crap!
Nothing i do works out!
I cant!
Im a failure!
I wish i would just die!

These phrases are used very commonly even by myself many times in the past. They try to creep up from time to time. However, we must break this habit, there is no way you can expect great feedback or even happiness when you speak this way. 

I wrote this entry because i am one to battle daily with words. I can easily get discouraged when things dont look so bright. Just a few days ago i felt confused, discouraged and like i just wanted to give it all up. Its not happening i said!, This acting thing isnt happening, ive done some things but im not getting ahead as much! Maybe im not talented enough, or maybe its not for me, maybe my time has past, ah!!! maybe i should just stick with being a veterinary technician and get paid and just forget 
everything else. 

Do you see how in a matter of seconds i just toatlly created a dark hole sucking every inch of joy, and hope out of me. Its a trap many fall into easily and im no exception. The key is what are you going to do about it!! I took control. I got up and shook myself and said WAIT A MINUTE! nothing comes easy. There are millions of proverbs out there like:

Practice makes perfect!
Better late than never!
Every cloud has a silver lining!

I can goon and on but my point is that these proverbs exist because someone at one point felt this way as well and through words found comfort and strength to keep going. I was so busy looking at all the bad and everything i didnt have that i neglected what i did. I had freedom, flexible schedules to do with my time as i please. How many wish they could just get up an do nothing and enjoy life and still have food and clothes and lavish things. I do! thanks to my supportive husband but he is a blessing and i have that. I may not be at the confidence level as an artist that i want but crying about it, getting down on and feeling helpless isnt going to make it better on the contrary it will push me deeper into that black hole. I look at what ive done. I have auditioned and i have gotten roles and i have like 3 projects im working on. I could have easily quit my job like i did and have done zip! I must acknowledge what i have accomplished and now i must work harder. I must speak and create my reality. In his word God says that with our tongue we create life or death! well i dont want death thats for sure. So i get myself together and start rehearsing what ive learned in seminars to be more efficient and prepared and looking at acting schools so that i can finetune my skills to the level i want. To every problem there is a solution but the answer isnt going to come knocking at your door. 

Im not perfect but i want to motivate others and be a leader, a world changer and to do this, i must work everyday by leading by example. We can all have a bad day but not a bad life. If you do its merely by choice.

How to change this habit?
Its simple. First, you have to be concious and focus on the good things that can happen for you and others and use appropiate words. Keyword: appropiate words!!! And with this i mean don't 
lie. Dont say im wonderful when your really feeling crappy. Thats a lie, instead use bridge words. These are words that serve as a pathway to where you want to get. Such as:

Im working on feeling better!!!
Things are on their way to getting brighter!
Im working hard on seeing the light in all this darkness!

Your not lying but your not being negative either. Instead your really working on the things your saying because you want them to be true!!
Also be tolerant of negative people, think about it. It may be annoying to have a negative person around but poor of them because they deal with themselves all day. 

Im not saying marry them and make it your mission to change their mind frame. One can only provide guidance but ultimately happiness its an individual choice. Stick with positive people who make life more enjoyable with their charisma and positive outlook but also dont talk about negative people and crticize. Things like:

Oh god that person is a pain in my neck!
Oh god that person stresses me out!
That person is going to drive me crazy and be the death of me!!


Mind your words carefully. They are powerful and whatever your entire enegy goes into is what youll create for yourself.

People that whine and criticize others are usually proyecting whats in their heart pray for them and share some light on their dark world!!!
If you change how you speak youll change who you are !!  

Use positive affirmations everyday. It may seem awkward at first but they are the building blocks to changing the frequency.

Say :

Im beautiful
Im well able 
Im equipped to deliver whatever is needed of me
Im blessed
I enjoy life
I appreciate what i have 

If you dont agree with the idea that words have power then i challenge you to think for a moment about what happens to a lot of people when they are constantly bullied or put down by parents, friends, peers or partners in life. 

Dont they begin to believe what these people say of them? Dont they believe These lies? Arent many angry, insecure, afraid? Why is that? Its phrases like the following that kills them inside:

Your not lovable!! 
Your a disgrace 
Your a mistake
You cant do anything right whats wrong with you
Your not worth it
Your fat
Your ugly 
Your a joke

I can go on. These things become engraved in our soul and we believe them. WHY? because we feel that these people know us and well if they say so then its must be true, right? WRONG!!!! They dont make us who we are. Even if our parents contributed to our existence, it still doesn't give them or anyone else the right to toy with our integrity and self esteem. 

God equipped us all with the ability to reign over our emotions. This just goes to show you how powerful words are and how they can shape who we are and our own perception and value. In the same manner tell yourself how great you are.

-So you had a bad day ? It happens, not everyday theres sunshine but after the rain comes the rainbow 
-So you didnt do so well in your rehearsal as the others and you feel bad? We are not perfect, at least you did it you could have not even tried and let fear run your life
-So this person thinks your a waste? Its just someones opinion there are millions of others who disagree, he isn't GOD your creator you don't have to be a people pleaser only the
weak give away their individuality. Please yourself be happy and comfortable in your own skin

Build yourself up give yourself a break from time to time. I struggle with perfectionism and when things come out ok i used to beat myself to death over it. I have learned to not take things personal. Tomorrow is a new day!! I now forgive myself and try harder the next time. Afterall, if its meant to be then it will happen.

Its not an easy task, im not going to lie, but its also not impossible. It gets harder when sometimes life kicks you down but you have to get up and say with affirmation and total 
belief: "its possible, its possible!!! i can make this, its possible i can get through this, im not going to let life get the best of me"

Sometimes we are afraid of our own shine. Its the light we possess vs the darkness in which many live in, that scares us to death!!! We feel we must shrink ourselves to give way for other peoples insecurities and for them to feel good being around us, but theres nothing enlightning or powerful about that.  No one gets noticed by being small we must expand. We are all special and meant to shine. This is not some golden rule for some people, NOOOO!!! its a green light for every human being walking this earth. As we free ourselves from these chains that keeps us from reaching out to our highest potential and as we show and embrace our light we encourage others to do the same. 

We must take a step into breaking our bond with fear and stepping hand on hand with faith and courage!! Its your turn now to motivate. To be living proof of who you are and what your made of!! 


Thursday, August 8, 2013


I heard this once, now i share with you readers:

"I want to be a world overcomer instead of the world overcoming me" My question to you is ? what do you want to be ?

For many years i was the most negative person on the face of this earth. I would have my good days and bad days, mostly bad. Everything would just get the best out of me. I walked around feeling self-pity for everything that didnt go well. Finding new ways to self punish me for not being PERFECT!! Man!! now looking back i see how lost and silly i was. 

I still have good and bad days. Its part of life's plan. The difference between now and then is that NOW i know im not alone, I KNOW im not PERFECT and i dont have to be. I KNOW NOW that when one door closes another ones opens and that a failure is only a triumph in disguise. So the questions begin:

1-So its that easy right? Yes, it is. 
2-Where do i start? With a positive mind set
3-But nothing is going my way? We dont always get what we want but God knows what we need.

Its only about trying. Changing the tape when negativity comes on. Play a happy song, look at pictures of happy days, stare at yourself in the mirror and put on your COLGATE smile, a smile from ear to ear and it will eventually go from being and feeling fake to making you laugh even if its just because you look like the man from the viagra commercial lol !! Smiling BOB!!

The point is that you can choose to be happy. If your waiting for the right person to make you happy or 
the right job to make you feel appreciated and needed or the right car because you hate public 
transportation or the right everything.. You see where im going with this ? There is no right in anyone or anything. Its all inside yor head. 

It took me years to finally understand that i cant expect people to make me feel loved and valuable, or to acknowledge my efforts, to SEE ME. I felt left out, invisible. I always felt that i needed to work extra harder than the natural charming favorite person to feel wanted by loved ones or just the general public. However it didn't matter what i did. I was never satisfied, my fairy tale was not exactly that. I ended up more depressed and bitter. Its exhausting to live for others. We must learn to love our flaws and who we are the whole package. I realized after falling on my face so many times that i practiced self pity in its totality. I would put myself in situations where i was left out just so people would feel bad for me. Many called it "ONLY CHILD SYNDROME". However thats not an excuse i know plenty of only child that are perfectly content. At the end of the day its a self esteem issue. The problem is inside and noone, ABSOLUTELY NOONE can helps us overcome that issue but ourselves, we must work hard every day to live for me not the world, no matter what is going on around me.  Thats a personal mission. 

Only i can love ME the best. Once your comfortable in your skin, your own company, doing absolutely nothing. Only then you will start to live YOUR life.!!! You will wake up and be ok with who you are today. No pressures to please the world. When you are positive and happy and full of energy, love and charisma people cling to you!! Your like a magnet of light and joy. Thats when youve probably heard people comment "woa you have a glow" yes thats your spirit rejoicing.

 Think about it.  What happens when your in a great mood and you enter a room full of discord, bitterness and negativity. You immediately start to feel like you need to go!!!! Your feet cannot run fast enough and many times we allow that energy to affect us and change our happiness into bitterness. We are energy and whatever we put off thats what we get. It says in the scripture:

Reckless words pierce like a sword, but the tongue of the wise brings healing. (Proverbs 12:18)

"Death and life are in the power of the tongue, and they who indulge in it shall eat the fruit of it [for death or life]."(proverbs 18:21)

There are many other religious passages about how whatever we declare we have that power to build or destroy ourselves.

So your not religious?

Well, thats fine but you cant deny the fact that you cant have happy thoughts and feel bad in your heart and viceversa you cannot have sad thoughts when you feel great! So there are plenty of books that dont mention religion yet share the same belief: your mind and your words should be in sync so only great things come out and are declared over your life.

 Its explained in full length in the Secret!!! So you see whatever your source, i just want to invite you to declare: well being, success, to say im victorious, im strong, im a great listener, people love to be around me, i have a great smile. Its just my belief  that god my creator sets up my path and everything i do,  i do in his sons name jesuschrist who came to die for us so we could be redeemed from our sins. We have a clean slate we can start over every day. Negativity is a habit. It took years to be that way therefore it will take time to change your mind set on a brighter outlook, yet, its not impossible. 

After all, "you'll never get better if you dont change, but youll never change if you dont try". 

Be a world overcomer instead of the world overcoming you!!!!



Oí una vez, ahora quiero compartir con ustedes los lectores:

"Quiero ser un vencedor en este mundo en lugar de el mundo vencerme " Mi pregunta para usted es? ¿qué quieres ser?

Durante muchos años yo era la persona más negativa sobre la faz de esta tierra. Yo tenia mis días buenos y días malos, en su mayoría malos. Todo agotaba lo mejor de mí. Caminé alrededor de la sensación de auto-compasión por todo lo que no iva bien. Encontrar nuevas formas de auto castigarme por no ser perfecta! wow! ahora mirando hacia atrás veo que perdída y tonta era.

Todavía tengo días buenos y malos. Es parte del plan de la vida. La diferencia entre entonces y ahora es que ahora no estoy sola, sé que no soy perfecta y q no tengo que ser. Ahora sé que cuando una puerta se cierra otra se abre y que el fracaso es sólo un triunfo en encubrimiento. Así q comienzan las preguntas:

1-Así que es así de fácil ¿no? Sí, lo es.
 2-dónde empiezo? Con una mentalidad positiva
3-Pero nada va a mi manera? Nosotros no siempre conseguimos lo que queremos, pero Dios sabe lo que necesitamos.

Está sólo en intentarlo. Cambia la cinta cuando la negatividad se enciende. Escuchar una canción alegre, ver fotos de días felices, mirarse a si mismo en el espejo y poner esa sonrisa COLGATE, con una sonrisa de oreja a oreja y con el tiempo pasará de ser y de sentirse falsa para hacerte reír incluso si es sólo porque te ves como el hombre del lol comercial viagra! EL ALEGRE BOB!

El punto es que usted puede elegir ser feliz. Si  espera la persona adecuada para ser feliz o
el trabajo adecuado para que se sienta apreciado y necesario o el coche porque odias
el transporte publico o todo lo que debe ser adecuado ..Si ves dónde me voy con esto? No existe el perfecto nada ni alguien. Todo esta en tu cabeza e interior.

Me tomó años entender, finalmente, que no puedo esperar que las personas me hagan sentir amada y valiosa, o reconozcan mis esfuerzos, o q me vean. Me sentí excluida, invisible. Siempre sentí que tenía que trabajar más duro que la persona favorita con encanto natural para sentirme querida por esos seres especiales o simplemente el público en general. Sin embargo, no importa lo que hiciera. Nunca estaba satisfecha, mi cuento de hadas no era exactamente eso. Terminé más deprimida y amargada. Es agotador vivir para los demás. Tenemos que aprender a amar a nuestros defectos y todo el paquete. Me di cuenta después de caerme en la cara tantas veces que me practiqué autocompasión en su totalidad. Me ponia en situaciones en las que me quedaba aislada sólo para que la gente se sienta mal por mí. Muchos lo llamaron " EL SÍNDROME DEL HIJA UNICA". Sin embargo eso no es una excusa. Conozco un montón de hijos únicos que son perfectamente contentos. Al final del día es un problema de autoestima. El problema está dentro y nadie, absolutamente nadie puede ayudarte a superar ese problema, sino nosotros mismos. Debemos trabajar duro todos los días para vivir para mí no para el mundo, no importa lo que está pasando a mi alrededor. Eso es una misión personal.

Sólo yo puedo amarme a mí misma de la mejor manera. Una vez que uno se siente a  gusto en su piel, su propia compañía, sin hacer absolutamente nada. Sólo entonces usted comenzará a vivir su vida.! Va a despertar y estar bien con lo que eres hoy. No hay presiones a favor del mundo. Cuando usted es positivo y feliz y lleno de energía, amor y carisma gente se aferra a ti! Tu eres como un imán de la luz y la alegría. Eso es cuando usted tiende a oir que probablemente la gente comenta "WOA que tienes un brillo" si esa es su espíritu de regocijo.

  Piensa en esto. ¿Qué pasa cuando estás en un gran estado de ánimo y entras en una habitación llena de discordia, la amargura y la negatividad. Inmediatamente empiezas a sentir que tienes que ir!! Tus pies no pueden correr lo suficientemente rápido y muchas veces permitimos que la energía nos afecte y cambia nuestra felicidad en amargura. Somos energía y lo que proyectamos ponemos es lo que conseguimos. Se dice en la Escritura:

Hay hombres cuyas palabras son como golpes de espada, pero la lengua de los sabios es medicina. (Proverbios 12:18)

"La muerte y la vida están en poder de la lengua, y los que se dan a ellas comerán el fruto de ella [de la muerte o la vida]." (Proverbios 18:21)

Hay muchos otros pasajes religiosos acerca de como tenemos que declarar  el poder de construir o destruirnos a nosotros mismos.

Así que tu no eres religioso?

Bueno, esta bien, pero no te puedes negar el hecho de que usted no puede tener pensamientos felices si se sienten mal en su corazón y viceversa no se puede tener pensamientos tristes cuando se siente genial! Así que hay un montón de libros que no menciona la religión pero comparten la misma creencia: su mente y sus palabras deben estar sincronizados de modo que sólo grandes cosas salen y se declaran sobre su vida.

Hay una explicacion completa en el libro el secreto! Así que ya ves.  Cualquiera que sea su fuente, solo quiero invitarlos a declarar: el bienestar, el éxito, decir soy victorioso, soy fuerte, soy un gran oyente, la gente le encanta estar cerca de mí, tengo una gran sonrisa. Es sólo mi creencia de que Dios mi creador crea mi camino y todo lo que hago, lo hago en nombre de sus hijo jesus que vino a morir por nosotros para que pudiéramos ser redimidos de nuestros pecados. Contamos con un borrón y cuenta nueva, podemos empezar de nuevo cada día. La negatividad es un hábito. Le tomó años para ser de esa manera por lo que se necesitará tiempo para cambiar su forma de pensar en una perspectiva más brillante, sin embargo, no es imposible.

Después de todo, "usted nunca consigue mejorar si no cambia, pero nunca cambiara si usted no intenta".

Sea un vencedor en este mundo en lugar de el mundo que vencerlo a usted!!


Thursday, August 1, 2013


On june 10, 2013 my life as i knew it was changed forever. For many years ive been working on me to become the best that i could be and no im not talking about the US Army lol! But a better human. However as with everything constancy becomes a key element. 

The type of business im in by CHOICE!! requires me to worry about the way i look sometimes to the point of obsession.
Its a tough industry if your not like this or like that sometimes your just not good enough right! But to whom? Society or God!! Some may say oh just another girl turned christian or preaching life changing blah blah blah!! But it doesnt matter, because i know its true and i believe i have been saved.. And by that i mean ive learned to appreciate the life god gave me and all the little things it carries within. I share my personal story because i feel i want to deliver a message to the world, maybe someone needs an option a caring hand " It doesnt matter whats on the outside if the inside is empty. rise today to the challenge set before you. Know that each obstacle 
represents a lesson to be learned. These are the moments, which shape who you are. You may choose to endure and overcome or stay without hope or change" YOU CHOOSE!!!

 I was a very vain person and even though as any woman i wanted to look good, many times i took it overboard almost to the point of narcissism with my comments and demeanor.  I learned the hard way that the surface is not always the most important thing.. like the old cliche "not everything that shines is gold ". I was selfish and wouldnt even consider the idea of children because of fear of my body changing or stretchmarks etc, yes its true ! sad but true!!! Many never commented on my horrible baby comments perhaps because they were saddened by my words and others agreed with my perspective and in those i found my support as if my mentality was the most dignified. How crazy life turns upside down!! 

If you follow me you know ive been posting spiritual messages and messages of overcoming difficulty yet not really knowing whats happening!!Some think ive lost it lol !! Well like i said on june 10 i got some weird skin infection that started as a pimple looking thing and in a matter of two days it spread like a virus all over my body except for my face. There wasnt a spot on my body where i didnt have these lines and bumps and blister like rashes. what was it. At first they said i had scabies ? They are mites yes! Mites that burrow tunnels under your skin and its like a freaking egg cemetary under your skin!!! As if that wasnt scary and disgusting enough its a super contagious infection. Forcing me to be isolated from everyone. I found myself feeling like a lepar feeling self pity and asking myself "why me” How the hell does one get this?? does life have a vendetta against me ? It seems that for one right thing in my life three wrong things happen?? Its easy to get down when things dont go our way im sure someone has felt this way at some point in their lifetime!!! As if that wasnt enough i lost some projects i was working on because of my newfound disease which after many trips to specialists, they agreed they don't know what the hell happened to me!!I lost my confidence, i grew apart from my family, my marriage was in ruins, i couldnt work i had no money everything that could go wrong did, talk about MURPHYS LAW!! i cried myself to sleep at night, the pain the burning was almost unbearable and i was lost with noone. So i had a face to face with God. 

I always had faith but not strong enough to believe in miracles or changes, i was half in hald out in the belief department. But what did i have to loose so i gave it a shot.  I cried and desperately asked him to rescue me and help me see light in all this sudden darkness. I contemplated ending it all, i had in the past so why not again and maybe this time i wouldnt make mistakes!! the accusing voices in my head showed me all the worst: your ugly, you cant act or model now whos going to hire you looking like that, your skin is ruined and not precisely by babies there you go your biggest nightmare turned reality your precious stomach messed up indefinitely, give up your dreams, your alone, you have no friends, your marriage is done , just disappear. But there is hope and death is not a solution, thats a cowards way out!! and im NOT a coward!! i share not for pity or judging even though some may do so anyway, but thats life too!! you cant please everyone its exhausting this i also learned in my solitude. We all have a cross to carry and behind a face and all smiles there can be a story and we just dont know!! 

Thats when i recieved a life changing call from a dear christian friend he gave me hope. He said i know someone that loves you and everything thats happening to you is 
just a test. Then he invited me to his church. Im catholic and at first like many despite my messed up life status i made excuses i didnt think it could help but finally i  agreed because my spirit needed food and healing, i had no answers and thousands of questions. Thats when i felt him.. God speak to me and we can all experience this change and his love if we believe .. If i didnt believe in a higher power before im a believer now!!! When i accepted christ and asked for forgiveness for all the things ive done and hurt ive caused myself and others. Things just changed in my life. As i write this, my eyes are filled with tears 
because its almost miraculous how those blisters dried out, the projects i had seen gone forever reached out to me and despite my skin condition and appearance they worked with me!! they changed wardrobe all for me!! They still wanted me!! i now have income from many different sources. Flexible jobs that work around my schedule and my marriage was restored stronger than ever!! if thats not enough i even changed my mind about babies. Those who know me personally know i never liked motherhood not even an option. But somehow in me that maternal flame was ignited and in the near future who knows minnie me roaming the earth.. i value myself and even though life will always throw a curveball i now know i have a source that controls everything and everyone, im not alone. I can do all things through christ who is my strenght. i changed forever and i will never look back... 

The moral is that sometimes we give so much importance to BS and stop living. We magnify our problems instead of diminishing them. We become obsessed with ourselves and self critical and beat ourselves down and forget that were not perfect and that no matter what we all have a purpose in life and its not up to us to decide when that purpose ends only to the almighty lord.. Prayer is powerul and our     words create life or death its in the bible so i choose LIFE!! I am special and i dont need a hollywood title to make me feel loved and accepted just need to love me because im worth it like loreal lol ! My present situation. i still have dark spots dont know for how long. But i dont care because no dark spot is going to make me stray away or give up on that dream, im alive so i guess my purpose on this here called EARTH IS NOT FULFILLED!! GOD will work it out in this i TRUST!!!Bless you all and dont give up ever if you fall ten times get up 11!!